Thursday, October 30, 2008

The Wild Inside

About ten years ago I moved to New Orleans. I was in the midst of my Saturn return and was recovering from some difficult family dynamics. I had watched my aunt die a slow death here in Denver. It was gruesome and it demanded a lot of my time and energy. I was desperate to get away for a while, so I rented my house, packed up some stuff and moved to the French Quarter.

I let myself get completely out of control. It was as if I cast myself in a role and played it to the hilt. There was a ton of alcohol and a handful of bad boys in the mix. I LOVED IT! I let myself get wild knowing it wouldn't last. I'm much too practical to live like that forever.

I lasted about nine months, just long enough to give birth to a new consciousness. The persona I created in the city that care forgot was totally different from the person I was at home. I became the fallen woman. I stayed up late and dressed myself in tattered rags. I danced and drank and sobbed over unrequited love. I took risks that shock me in retrospect. It was creative and tragic and intense.


The only reason this experiment worked is because I knew it would end. I was so lucky to have the opportunity to live this alternate reality. It took me a bit of time to clean myself up once I returned to Denver. There were financial problems to be mended and healing to be done but I wouldn't trade the experience for the world. I learned a lot about myself and the depths of my own depravity. It was as if I scratched an itch that had been bugging me for years...so satisfying!

We so often force ourselves to stay on the straight and narrow. We judge ourselves for our transgressions. We resist the compulsive urges that threaten our stability and in doing so, we miss out. The energy we use trying to keep ourselves together detracts from our ability to be creative and to live to the fullest. We lose our range as spirit when we limit what we think is acceptable behavior.

Have you ever fallen in love with the wrong person? What made it wrong? Was there abuse? Could it be that those experiences are vital? I hate to say it, but that kind of love can make us feel so alive. The trick is knowing that we can leave and create something else. We can visit those spaces knowing we can also choose to create a new version stability and prosperity with our hard earned information.

Even now, I have time periods where I let myself get out of control. It's not as extreme as it was ten years ago! The wild inside now is more about taking a day off when I probably should be working, or spending too much time on the internet reading blogs. Still, I need to have that unstructured, crazy space. The rebellious teen in me is still alive and kicking. To say no to her would not be healthy. She knows how to make a ruckus!

What are you resisting? What urges are you repressing and judging? Could it be that these urges are important and need to be explored? I ask you to contemplate this question and see if you can't find a way to INDULGE. It doesn't have to be extreme or cause destruction. Open the door to the part of yourself that's locked away.

Go ahead and walk with the devil. It's fun and rich with information, especially when you know you can leave any time you want.

If we keep these dark parts bottled up, there will be trouble. Subtle, destructive energy will leak out all over the place. Be a little naughty now and then. You'll still get to heaven, I promise. In the meantime, here on earth, you'll have the richness of experience as well as the certainty of knowing that you can trust yourself if and when you jump off a cliff.

Make friends with the wild inside...or as William Blake once said THE ROAD OF EXCESS LEADS TO THE PALACE OF WISDOM. Stop holding back and trust yourself to navigate the darkness. Forgive the destructive part of your being, for without destruction, there can be no creation.

Love to you lovelies!! Feel free to share your stories with me! The darker the better as we enjoy the waning energy of the new moon in Scorpio.

Monday, October 27, 2008

Fortune Forecast 10/27 - 11/2


PUT ADVENTUROUS IMPULSES ON HOLD

We would be wise to hold off on risks and bold movements this week. Conservative, earthy energies urge us to dig in and hold steady now. Wait patiently for the right opening. This is harder than it sounds. So often we are seduced by our own will. We want what we want and we feel determined to make it happen. It won't work this week as unexpected developments push us to be more grounded and cautious in our approach to goals and challenges. Know that by waiting, we're allowing energies and forces to line up in our favor. In other words, trust and faith are essential this week. Happy surprises will show up when we need them if we can remain in a receptive and open space. Lose the effort and let the river of life take you somewhere wonderful. Life is an adventure now, just not the adventure we planned on. Who needs plans anyway?

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Monday 10/27
ENCOURAGE CREATIVITY
It's easy to get stuck in a rut and to have the focus become more and more narrow. How do we know we've drifted from the big space of manifesting? We can tell by tuning into our bodies. Are we breathing deeply? Do our muscles feel open and relaxed? If not we may be clinging to a goal stubbornly and unable to see the myriad of other options available. Let's move into a bigger dream space today.

Tuesday 10/28
SAY GOODBYE TO THE OUTGROWN AND OUTDATED
We all collect things and keep them around for sentimental reasons. Unfortunately these things take up valuable space and sometimes require energy that could be put to better use. This is a great time to do some purging. Let's prepare for new things to arrive. We might be letting go of ideas we hold about ourselves and our lives that have kept us in a tight space as well as the literal stuff we've amassed.

Wednesday 10/29
VALIDATE SMALL STEPS
Though we love those giant leaps forward, progress often happens in small, unexciting steps. A big goal van be overwhelming. Doubts and fears creep in and kill the enthusiasm. A small step can help. Research, communication and a bit of action can move the energy that says NO. Be proud of the progress even if it seems to be moving at a snail's pace. Relish the movement, great and small.

Thursday 10/30
NARROW THE FOCUS
There's a lot going on today and it's hard to find the focus. We might have to be vigilant and prepared to limit distractions. this is a form of self-care and if we don't take a stand, we might end up immersed in spaces that are draining and distracting. Take breaks today to check in with the inner world. Otherwise prepare to get swept away. Learning to say no is a great space to play in now.

Friday 10/31
CELEBRATE A VICTORY
It might be a small victory but it's a victory nonetheless. It's time for a reward of some kind. Too often we get caught up in a cycle of MORE, MORE, MORE. This prevents us from feeling good about where we are right now. Pause and enjoy the abundance that's here right now. Doing so will create the foundation for bigger victories. Slough off the perfectionist in favor of enjoying the NOW.

Saturday 11/1
A NEW PATH UNFOLDS
We might be surprised at today's developments. A change in direction that we didn't anticipate can help us move more quickly and effectively. Don't be afraid to experiment and visualize a new path to achieving an old goal. It's a little frightening to surrender to the fates but we have more control here than we realize. Go willingly and with an open mind into the vast new territory ahead.

Sunday 11/2
RESIST THE EASY OPTION
It's so tempting to take a short cut today. We might even have a nagging sense that this short cut is a risk and a gamble that probably won't pay off. Why waste time on it? Hold steady and keep chipping away. The long way can become the short way with consistent effort and belief in our abilities. If it doesn't feel right, don't do it, no matter how seductive it looks.

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BALANCE ACTION AND INACTION

There are times to leap forward and times to rest. The trick this week is knowing when to do what. Intuition can inform and enlighten, but intuition only works when we listen and respond to the cues. When we feel overwhelmed and unsure, we know to slow down and resist impulsive action. It's hard to let go of the effort we use to drive our dreams but effort is not nearly as powerful as enthusiasm and play. Do what it takes to get playful this week no matter what pops up. Don't succumb to the seriousness. Remember that 4th grade teacher who was constantly telling you to stop messing around? Get her out of your head once and for all. You don't want to end up crabby and dry like her, now do you?? UNLEARN THE PART OF YOU THAT GOT SERIOUS. You weren't born that way and can relinquish it now.

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Thursday, October 23, 2008

The Quiet Spaces

Have you ever sat down to meditate and felt restless and impatient? The mind races and the body wants to jump up and do something, anything but sit in a chair quietly. Why do we resist the quiet spaces that offer healing and peace? What is it that gets in the way of our journey to solitude?

Our bodies look solid and separate from each other but really, we're like sponges. We're taking energy in and putting energy out all the time. We exchange energies with each other and sometimes we lose the ability to let it all go.

When we get jammed up with energy, it's hard to sit down and get quiet. Even though it's the best thing for us, we just can't do it. To get to the quiet space, we have to journey through the junk on top. That junk is not who we are but some of it has been in us for so long that we identify with it and will do anything to avoid it.

Fortunately, mediation comes in many forms. Any activity we enjoy can be a mediation. When we can't sit still, we can create movement that heals.

So often, when a person shows up for a reading for the first time, they are nervous and unsure. They think I might have something terrible to say. I'm not looking at what's terrible, I'm looking at what's WONDERFUL. It's so gratifying to see a person relax into their magic. My clients often look different at the end of a session. It's as if they start to glow again and they are always more beautiful than they were at the start.

Please friends! Look for opportunities to meditate now. Our world is fraught with anxiety and fear. As each one of us separates out from the group agreement, we break it apart and allow even more miraculous energy to flow.

Reach out for help is you need to. Call a friend and find something to laugh about. Grab a journal and get all those dark thoughts out of your space and on to the paper. Go for a walk and enjoy the magnificence of the natural world.

WAKE UP TO YOUR SPLENDID SELF!

Knowing what I know about the world now, I created a new offering called WISDOM INFUSION. It's short and sweet and very powerful and can help you separate out from the junk that gets between you and the quiet space inside. I'd love to help you discover the beauty and magic that's waiting for you.

HANG IN THERE LOVELIES! Troubled times lead to truth and wisdom. You have everything you need to weather the storm. All you have to do is remember who you are, a brilliant, creative being in a world of forgetting.

Blessings!
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Monday, October 20, 2008

Fortune Forecast 10/20 - 10/26


THINK POSITIVE, REAP THE REWARDS

Start small if you have to but look for something to be grateful for and cultivate even more gratitude. The mind is powerful this week and can help us create more magic or sink us into the depths of despair. For those who apply gentle discipline to the mind, delight lies in wait. Alchemical energies are available to us now. Take those lemons and make a batch of delicious lemonade. Be creative and resourceful and willing to look at challenges from a new angle. If the door is closed, look for a window and hop on through. Look for small miracles and soon the miracles will multiply. It's the easiest and most challenging thing in the world. It may be the number one lesson of being human. We are creators and we can create the love, abundance and healing we want WITHOUT A DOUBT.

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Monday 10/20
RICH IS RELATIVE
It's easy to get seduced into longing for what we don't have today. We look around and see areas that feel less than prosperous and wonder if we can make positive change. We can and we will, especially when we start to focus on what we do have. Take a moment to reflect on top values. Knowing these values helps create lives that reflect these values. Stability, adventure, fun? What do we want?

Tuesday 10/21
FORGE A NEW PATH
It's hard to break away from what's familiar and safe, especially when we can't see what's ahead. It's time to get creative and cultivate the willing to envision a new path. If we can just dredge up the strength to try, the magic will start to unfold. Expecting guidance from friends and loved ones leaves us unable to hear our own wisdom. It's a little lonely today and that's the way it's supposed to be.

Wednesday 10/22
CLARITY MAKES A PLAN WORKABLE
Write it, speak it, make a list. The more orderly our plan is, the easier it is to implement. Small steps can lead to great progress so don't let the magnitude of certain goals stop the movement. Friends and confidants can help us brainstorm and see possibilities we might overlook on our own. Sharing ideas helps everyone get inspired and ready for action. A nice turn of events from the loneliness of yesterday.

Thursday 10/23
BALANCE HEAD AND HEART
Internal conflict is threatening to stop all progress today. The head and the heart are pulling in opposite directions. See these two forces as children that are quarreling. There is a part of us that is bigger and wiser than these two and that part can broker a compromise. This of course will be dependent on our ability to stop over-identifying with our favorite child.

Friday 10/24
CONFUSION SLOWS PROGRESS
Things are not moving very fast today and it's causing a lot of frustration and consternation. The thing is, the delay is a good thing. We need a little more time to consider all the information before committing to anything. Try to remember that when tempers threaten to flare and create even more obstacles. The missing piece is soon to come and when it does it will be easy to take a big leap forward.

Saturday 10/25
IMPATIENCE WREAKS HAVOC
Hasty action is not a good idea today. There are just too many unknown variables coming into play. It's hard to say no to opportunities that look so promising on the surface. It's not that we necessarily have to say no, we just need to give ourselves time to think about it all and decide on the most efficient course of action. A pause is the best gift we can give to ourselves and one that will serve us well.

Sunday 10/26
LOVE IS THE RETREAT AND THE REST
Sunday is such a great day to stop, reflect and rejuvenate. Most of us have lost our sense of ritual in the world. It's time to create new ones. Even if there are only 20 minutes to spare, bask in love and affection for yourself and others. We've got to stop putting off connection in favor of getting stuff done. Be present with loved ones. Put all the thinking aside and just be.

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PICTURE WHAT YOU WANT, KEEP IT SIMPLE

Use that magical mind of yours to picture something wonderful. Don't be afraid to push past the part of you that says that could never happen. It can and it will! If you can't come up with a picture, call on the energy you want to experience. How do you want to feel when you wake up in the morning and think about your work, family and health? I love working with color because it helps me imagine the quality of energy I would like to create.

  • For enthusiasm and creativity try pink and orange.
  • For a calm, centered quiet vibe try green and blue.
  • For strength and power try shades of red, burgundy and purple.
  • For divine healing, bring in the gold.
Imagine a color all around your body and let that vibration of energy infuse you with the energy and healing you need. Experiment and see what happens. Keep it simple for best results.

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Thursday, October 16, 2008

The Fog

People seem to be walking around in a bit of a fog lately. As each day passes and we get more familiar with our new circumstances, the trance begins to wear off. We're getting used to the changes. The fear gives us an opportunity to discover a new kind of innocence. After all, with a new paradigm, comes new opportunity to experience the world differently, free from expectations and assumptions.

My prediction for the next decade or so is that we're going to see a lot more emphasis on relationships and building community. I think we'll see more people coming together to work cooperatively to not only make change but to hold steady as well.


This is good news! The bottomless pit that we try desperately to fill can be filled with connection and the exchange of energy and love. In my opinion, that will be the new currency that matters.

I recently read an article written by a man who was in New Orleans for hurricane Katrina and the aftermath. He wrote a list of things to help get through a disaster. One thing he stressed was the importance of knowing your neighbors and having a community support system. This is essential in times of trouble because as a group, the sharing of resources can mean the difference between survival or not. He was able to get through the dearth of food and water by pooling with other people. He was only able to do this because those people cared about him, and he cared about them in response.

The psychic weather has been a bit of a hurricane lately. Even my friends who've managed to detach from the news and the panic are starting to get a little more nervous. In other words, no one is immune to the group agreement of fear.

Instead of hiding out, we need to get out there and look for opportunities to create more community. I've had some of the most amazing and frank conversations with people as this financial mess has become more and more real. The opportunity to bond is HUGE.

Not much else to say today. The Katrina survivor mentioned one other currency that helped him get through the hurricane. He says you can never have too much of this particular resource, that it's in high demand during a disaster and can be traded for other valuable resources.

Can you guess what it is?

TOILET PAPER.

Stock up if you're the kind who thinks a disaster is eminent!

Monday, October 13, 2008

Fortune Forecast 10/13 - 10/19


SMALL STEPS LEAD TO BIG PROGRESS

Sometimes we have a goal and just thinking about what it might require to get there can take the wind right out of our sails. This is a great week to revisit ideas that may have been cast aside as impractical or impossible. A small step each day can create amazing progress. A phone call or a visit to a website for more info can be invaluable. Opportunity is out there waiting for us to seize it. If looking at the long term goal is overwhelming, look for the next, indicated action and do it. It's important to enjoy the process of getting somewhere. We can't sustain motivation if we're working toward something that might happen someday. How do we make it more engaging to be on the path? Let's be creative in our thinking and our approach.

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Monday 10/13
HOLD STILL
It's so tempting to take rash action today. We need to hold still if we want to take productive and prosperous action. The answer is not obvious at first, in fact there's an element of counter-intuitiveness that could lead to a creative breakthrough or two. Notice the pressure to choose something, anything and gently decline. Good things will come to those who wait, as they say.

Tuesday 10/14
LET IT GO
It's time to choose peace over resentment and hurt. A relationship that recently soured is hard to stop thinking about. We may feel terribly victimized by the way circumstances played out but by telling ourselves this particular story, we are only hurting ourselves. It's time to make some gesture representative of healing. Take action to move past the heaviness of something that really doesn't matter anymore.

Wednesday 10/15
MAGIC REIGNS
A wonderful day for small miracles. Stay awake to what's happening. There are countless moments of grace and the more aware of them we are, the bigger they becomes. Keep the focus on what's amazing and worthy of gratitude. As we see what's beautiful in the world, the beauty multiplies. If there's a special wish in our hearts, let's be willing to be vulnerable to ask for it.

Thursday 10/16
EXTEND AFFECTION
It will feel great to help someone less fortunate today. Love is so easy to give and like yesterday's magic, love can multiply and spread quickly. If there's someone you've been meaning to check up on, do so. Being a willing listener might be all it takes to create a big healing for a lonely soul. Let's make sure to let our loved ones know how valuable they are. Loving exchanges create abundance and peace for all.

Friday 10/17
SHINE LIKE A STAR
It's a great day to look for friends new and old. The energy is playful and light for those who need a dose of healing amusement. It's infectious, the happiness. For those of us who are being recognized for our creative contributions, let the praise sink in and sooth the soul. Good times can be had any time and anywhere under any and all conditions. Be the one to start the party.

Saturday 10/18
OVERHAUL BOUNDARIES
Boundaries are under attack today by chaotic and antagonistic forces. Defending ourselves won't be difficult as long as we stay awake to what's happening. It might be time to start saying to no to spaces that are chronically draining. It's hard to say no to people we care about. Sometimes no is the best healing there is. Don't hesitate to let a loved one find the bottom of their own problem.

Sunday 10/19
REFRESH THE DREAM SPACE
Dreams need to be updated here and there. Sometimes we find ourselves slightly out of step with ourselves. It's as if a part of us is growing past the mental framework we use to make sense of ourselves. A little time spent reflecting on values can help us make adjustments that will yield a bigger harvest. Cast old, unimportant dreams aside and welcome some new ones in.

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DON'T BE DECEIVED BY WHAT LOOKS BARREN

Even in the winter there is growth. A desert is arid and dry but still teams with life. So it is this week. It might look like there's no growth, no opportunity, no fertility and things are slipping into stagnation. It's not true. Creative energy is shimmering and waiting to be tapped into. It's vital that we cultivate new points of view and allow fresh responses to old problems. If an idea feel a little sparkly, it should be pursued, researched and implemented. If the normal routine is boring, shake it up. Don't take things heard and seen too literally. Remember the games we play here. Those games are dramatic and sometimes painful and we can see the wisdom of it all as soon as we brush up against the part of us that agreed to fall asleep (the number one rule of the game). We can always wake up and change the story. Even brief moments of consciousness create the freedom we need to make changes. Don't wait for things to be ideal, enjoy living now.

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Thursday, October 9, 2008

Sleepy Time

I love sleeping! What a wonderful space of relief and healing.
I bet you love it too.

Before I go to sleep I like to send out a few prayers and do some energy work. I imagine a big, gold bubble of magical energy all around my house. I take time to decide what I want in my home...abundance, love, peace, healing, amusement, freedom, creativity, protection, space for everyone to be who they are...you know, the good stuff. This comforts me immensely.

Last night however, I had a strange experience. I woke in the middle of the night to the sound of what seemed like 8 fire engines and 14 ambulances. Now I live between a hospital and a fire station so I'm somewhat used to the sound of sirens. This was different. As I bubbled up from the deep trance of sleep to this incredible, urban cacophony I had a moment of terror. There was a part of me that for a minute thought the worst. It even seemed like the room was glowing red a bit.

HOLY COW THE WORLD'S ON FIRE.


It took a minute before I settled back into a restful space. I felt incredibly vulnerable in the dark as I confronted all kinds of scary thoughts. I fully felt my helplessness in the face of potential disaster. It was as if the fearful part of my psyche was close enough to the surface that it was the first responder to all that noise.

The anxiety level in the world is high right now. THIS ENERGY IS AFFECTING US. In that moment of foggy panic, I became even more aware of how the collective anxiety is right here all the time, ready to take over my consciousness.

In many ways, the world is on fire...transformative fire.

Lately in my prayers, I've been working on giving it all over to God. I just keep relinquishing my junk and asking to be more of an instrument of divine will.

I WILL TO WILL THY WILL.


It's strange how things start to fall together the more I offer this prayer. The people I need to meet are showing up and the clues I need are popping out and showing me which way to go. At the same time, I notice the fear and nervousness as it asserts itself many times a day, demanding that I take it seriously.

umm...H TO THE NO or in other words HELL NO!

Inside each of us there is a calm, quiet place where we know IT'S GOING TO BE OK. We lose it here and there but the quiet remains. Sometimes we lose it for a few minutes or a few days. Sometimes we lose it for a few months or a few years. Still, the quiet is in us waiting to be found.

The next question becomes, if it's there, why wouldn't we make it a bigger priority to maintain and embody it? My theory is that it's hard to stay in that place. Though it offers comfort, it's also the place where we know what needs to be done even if what needs to be done conflicts with our personal agenda. Most of us are unwilling to give up our personal agenda in order to align with divinity...AND THAT'S OK TOO.

I've probably written about this before but what I see emerging from all this chaos is DIVINITY. The opportunity to find and cultivate that quiet place is getting bigger and at the same time more complicated. As what we know and count on cracks apart, we get a chance to look for that quiet place. We get a bigger opportunity to see God in the world. We also get to confront our own reluctance to spend time there. It's ok to be ambivalent about embodying more of who we are. There's a sense of responsibility that makes is seem serious and not fun.

I WILL TO WILL THY WILL
...give it over to God!

What's worse than willfully saying no to the quiet space of divinity inside us?
FORGETTING THAT IT EXISTS.

Visit anytime lovelies!!

HOPE THIS MAKES SENSE.
not feeling articulate lately...interrupted sleep??

Monday, October 6, 2008

Fortune Forecast 10/6 - 10/12


ACT ON A NEW TRUTH

Potent information is coming through this week. Not all of it is welcome. We're starting to see that some of the areas we've invested in are not going to be as fruitful as we had hoped. The trick is, can we pivot and make adjustments and side step the part of us that wants to panic/lament/create unnecessary drama. It's not that drama is wrong, it's just that we need to be responsive and fluid when confronted with the many twists and turns in the path ahead. Don't be afraid to take a strong stance once clarity descends. Making excuses for other people's bad behavior is not helpful. It's time for everyone to dig deeper and work harder. No excuses. Once the work begins, we'll have the happy surprise of discovering that it feels good to leave an illusive, untenable dream behind in favor of what's real and available.

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Monday 10/6
BLESSINGS RAIN DOWN
Get ready for happy surprises and unexpected good fortune. It's time to open up and make ourselves available for the good stuff. The risk here is that by opening up to new blessings, we might also be making ourselves vulnerable to the yuck. Being defensive and trying to shut out certain experiences and energy doesn't work. Stay fluid, stay loose and know that whatever comes along can be handled with grace.

Tuesday 10/7
PAUSE BEFORE CHOOSING
Truth has many dimensions and can look different based on our emotional experience in any given moment. Being reactive today will not yield the results we want. We need to be mindful of slowing down and letting all the information in before choosing a course of action. It will be tough to resist the urge to make decisions based on impulsive urges but that's exactly what's called for.

Wednesday 10/8
CALM RACING THOUGHTS
What more is there to say? The mind is a stressed out mess today and needs a little gentle discipline. Meditation and breathing techniques can help us snap out of the negativity. Meditation can take many forms. For some it is gardening. For some it is playing music. for some it is a walk in a lovely park. We don't have to stop the mind so much as get our bodies in motion to counteract the anxiety.

Thursday 10/9
VALIDATE THE END OF A CYCLE
Something that was once beloved is ending. There are many happy memories and sentimental reflections surrounding this space but the truth is, it's time to move forward and find new forms of happiness. If grieving needs to happen, let's undertake it with a willing and open heart. The process will be easier of we remember that something exciting and new is beginning to take shape.

Friday 10/10
LOOK FOR MORE LOVE
Break out of stale patterns today and go on a quest. Love is out there, but it's also lurking inside us waiting to be catalyzed. Exploration is favorable now and we can all experience a renewed sense of well being with a little adventure to stir the soul. Look for someone in need to give to. Open the heart and let all that healing love pour out. This kind of conscious energetic connection will give back tenfold.

Saturday 10/11
RELISH RECENT VICTORIES
Stop and feel good right here even if the landscape is still riddled with challenges. It's important that we validate the progress we've made. How often do we put off rest and celebration in order to make a bigger dent in the endless list of projects? This is a pattern that just doesn't work and we have the power to change it NOW. Let's be proud, let's feel good and let's put aside the need to apologize for it.

Sunday 10/12
SAY NO TO THE CRITIC
The critic is loud today and wants a lot of attention. It's ok to listen to the negative chatter. The big challenge is, can we listen without giving it too much credence? See this voice as the voice of a frightened child and react accordingly. A part of us is asking for nurturing. That's all it is. Some calm reassurance to the part of us that doesn't believe will help sooth and calm the irrational voice of fear.

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DON'T BE AFRAID TO SEE BEYOND THE DREAM

The dreams we have sometimes rob of us our ability to see what's magical here and now. We hang on to certain dreams to keep ourselves from experiencing disappointment and overwhelm with what's really going on. Unfortunately, some dreams start to collect more pain and sadness than joy and relief. Sometimes our dreams are too narrow and they prevent bigger blessings from coming in. This is a great week to slow down and take a closer look at the dreams we use to fuel our lives. Are there goals that aren't resonating with who you are in present time? Are you putting effort into making something happen that isn't going to bring the results you want? Are there ways to update fantasies so that they are more reflective of the present environment and the resources available? Let's not be afraid to liberate ourselves and in doing so, allow a new creative pulse to start beating.

It's time for a new vision!

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Thursday, October 2, 2008

Eye of the Needle

I often find myself thinking of an hourglass in my readings of late. All those grains of sand pushing to get through the thin part and back into a more expansive space. I see so many people getting squeezed and challenged as they do what they can to get to that bigger, more spacious space.

Maybe it's not the thin part of the hourglass we're moving through. Maybe it's more like the eye of the needle. One side of the needle is open and undefined just like the other side. We move from uncertainty to uncertainty. There seems to be no containment after the squeeze...just another vast and undefined realm to get familiar with.

The eye of the needle has a lot of layers as a metaphor, after all isn't it harder for a rich man to gain entrance into heaven than it is for a camel to pass through the eye of the needle? Which leads me to my next observation: there is a lot of rage towards the wealthy right now.

This rage seems to be a world experience. A CEO in India was recently murdered by a mob of workers who'd been laid off. In our own country there is a HUGE population of frustrated, hard working, tax paying Americans who feel ripped off by the excesses and financial shenanigans that have landed us at the door of disaster (really? are we at the door of disaster?).

At the same time, we have to acknowledge that culturally we have celebrated and encouraged great wealth. Our pop culture is littered with shows and sites that detail how the wealthy live, what they do, who they do it with, etc, etc. We are fascinated by the accumulation of riches and everything that goes with it.

The last decade or so, we've heard stories of salaries in the tens of millions. Many of those millions have seemingly evaporated? Meanwhile, a lot of us are struggling just to stay on top of our financial obligations. It's as if the energy of money is changing so quickly, we can hardly keep up.

When I look at the space of manifesting money, it has that shimmering, mirage quality. There's so much of it and it's right there. How come some people tap into that vein with ease, while others struggle and strain? Are the successful people more worthy? Do they have a secret that they're not sharing? Are they just better at manifesting?

I'm not sure I have the answers, but I do know that our relationship to money and resources is changing. It's painful and yet we are getting closer to a truth. How many of us have used money as a way to deal with painful feelings? How often have we spent thoughtlessly and without care? How often have we harbored judgments against those who have more or less?

This is not the time to slip into punishing thoughts and feelings. Even the rage we may have towards others who have more and took more is not helpful to our own space of abundance. We've gone from a space of celebration and longing to lynch mob. It's as if we have yet to find the peaceful space in the middle, where the energy of money is neutral.


Isn't life grand? We are confronted with opportunities to grow at every turn. Even as we contemplate moving through the eye of the needle, we can still see the beauty, the promise and the tragedy of the world. Maybe now that our fascination with wealth has turned the corner, we can put our attention on other issues. Issues that confronted creatively bring fulfillment and healing.

Reach out and connect. Make yourself available to be of service. Dig deep to remember what is truly valuable.

This too shall pass (it might take awhile) and we may be called upon to sacrifice (to sacrifice is to make sacred) but what's falling apart now wasn't working. The collapse of what we know allows a new dream to come into form.

I hope you are weathering the storm ok!!

Know that I'm praying for you and your family.

Remember too that you don't really need my prayers because you're an incredibly, creative, alchemical, miraculous, divine being!

We're all stakeholders in the game.
Let's play better by waking up to who we really are.
START NOW.