Thursday, December 31, 2009

Sweet Jesus

I like to be optimistic but I would be remiss if I didn't mention that today and tomorrow, there's some intense and challenging, astrological energy. With the full moon lunar eclipse/blue moon in Cancer, emotions are sure to be intensified. Nostalgia is off the charts.

We all want the holidays to be a renewal, but most of our recent, important dates for celebration were and are fraught with tense, difficult energetic patterns. It's not an easy time. First chakra meditations can help. We all need to get grounded in a rapidly changing reality. Think roots, red, release, replenish.


No complaints from me. Life is full of lessons and interesting developments. A joke developed on my trip as I ran into 11 of my cousins (all slightly younger than me). I simply cannot achieve inner peace without wireless internet. It was funny. The internet was frustrating on my trip. It really felt like it was messing with my ability to create a degree of inner peace.

Still, even if the internet had been perfect on my trip, there would have been other troubles I'm sure. That's life. Still, it got me thinking about the other conditions that I might have put on inner peace without realizing it. How many times do we say "I'll be peaceful when..." I get the right relationships, the right job, the right whatever. Are these conditions creating a block?

Perhaps it's time to clean the space of inner peace out. Dust it off, update the notion, the experience and free it from any heavy, needy stuff. Inner peace may be a fleeting thing but it does offer a lot of refreshment when it shows up. Why not clean that space out and prepare for new things to come?

2010 is a numerological 3 (2+0+1+0=3). Three is about expression, bringing things to life, the chaos of creativity, giving birth, fertility, the child and the holy trinity. What will be born this year? I predict a fast pace and lots more change but with the playful quality of the 3. Dynamic indeed...

And that brings me to the other chakra that seems to need balancing en masse; the third chakra. Get some yellow and gold going, place a hand over the solar plexus. Drink plenty of water and let that space settle down. It will help with energy flow, abundance and the facilitation of physical rest.

This holiday season presents us with opportunities to learn more about acceptance, forgiveness and gratitude. Good stuff! Something has shifted in the outer reaches of our human family, in a good way. Thank-you Full Moon eclipse in Cancer. Since Cancer is the mother, I think a lot of us are looking or ways to be more tender with the world and ourselves. The last night of 2009 is the mother giving birth to the creative exploration of a 3 year. Let go now of expectations and perfectionist notions that block the experience of what's happening right now. Make space for the life that's forming.

I can't wait to see what happens.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Sunday, December 27, 2009

Fortune Forecast 12/28 - 1/3

WELCOME TO 2010!

Can you believe it? I can't. Sorry this is a bit of a mess this week, friends. I'm in New Mexico, the Land of Enchantment. We brought our sickness to my mother's house and none of my relatives wants to come see us! With all the Saturn intensity in the sky, I'm not surprised. This is not a typical Fortune Forecast because 1. the internet is a sketchy thing where I'm at and 2. all this sickness has me reflecting on bodies and how out of control it feels to be a physical being sometimes.

When I was first learning my energy-work techniques (at 22 years old) I thought if I just worked enough energy I would never get sick, experience bad fortune or even die. It wasn't a conscious thought really but now looking back I can see how I believed that being spiritual and meditating would somehow save me from suffering. It seems ridiculous now. As I get older, I see that suffering is inescapable. Sometimes we do all the right things and don't get what we want or expect. 2010 is bound to bring surprises and opportunities. There may be bumbs in the road up ahead but those bumps don't mean that we aren't precious, delightful beings. It's just part of the Earth experience. We try and try to make sense of this place and it remains nonsensical. Perhaps 2010 will push us to continue to work on surrender, acceptance and understanding the right use of will. I wonder...

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

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Monday 12/28
LOVE WHAT IS
That's the short of it. See what's great and admire it. Take attention off what is stressful and scary. It really is as simple as that but not easy. It's a practice, a life long practice. Start now and keep coming back to what's wonderful. The good stuff grows under these conditions. And so it is.

Tuesday 12/29
CREATIVITY IS CHAOS
We're dealing with chaos today but it can be a fun and dynamic experience if we want it to be. Chaos is a sign of transition. We're on the bridge to somewhere new. The space of transition is ripe with the opportunity to try new things. Do it. You know you've been waiting for this time to arrive.

Wednesday 12/30
SEE IT, BELIEVE IT
Visualize what you want. Picture it. Add detail is you want and then add the consideration that the universe knows what to bring. Be open to the picture being altered by forces greater than our own. Believe that you can have what you want. It doesn't matter what we create if we don't believe we can have it. Raise the bar now.

Thursday 12/31
OPEN THE DOOR
Opportunity is here but we have to be open to it. There might be someone in need knocking at the door as well today. Though we might feel low on resources, sharing and working to heal this person will bring abundance and joy. Start saying yes to what comes along even if it looks like something less than stellar.

Friday 1/1
CELEBRATE AND SHARE
Happy New Year! It's a lovely day to sit back and ponder what's been happening. Perhaps we don't know what we want just yet. Rest now and let the vision take shape. We might feel a desire to pull away and create isolation. Togetherness offers more healing now. Find someone to be close to and connect.

Saturday 1/2
REST AND REFLECT
Today is the day for alone time. Even a short bit of a break can help us get oriented to the new year and the shift in energy it brings. Reframe the story. Take out the negativity and see what's golden. It's there. Even the most difficult challenges can be framed as a heroic struggle. Be the hero of your story this year.

Sunday 1/3
CONSERVATION PAYS
Conserve energy and resources today. There's no need for big expenditures. Pause and wait until more information arrives. Keep an eye on impulsive impulses. They are not to be trusted at least for now. See these feelings as information. What are we trying to escape or fix by casting out for something different? Fidn the answer to this question and discover a new source of power.

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STAY FLUID

Be like the river. Move around obstacles. Don't try and force your will on any space. Trust and let it unfold. Be the magic. You are and always will be!!

LOVE TO ALL YOU ALL!!!

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

Illin'

Happy Holidays! I hope you're feeling good, peeps.

A minor illness has struck our house. It involves vomit, looses stools and lots of laundry. Not really what I had in mind but oh well.

If you've been looking for me for a reading, I apologize. I've been a tad unavailable. I leave with the kids on Christmas day for Santa Fe in my new (used) car. I'm pretty excited to hit the road and visit my dear grandmother. She's been illin' too and I want to see her as often as possible. The trip however makes my availability even more sketchy. I'll be back in action by the last few days of the year and I'll be sending lots of free minutes,, so get ready for those New Year readings.

Some of you have expressed interest in coming to see me in Idaho Springs. Please do come up in the New Year, some morning when the kids are in school. It's lovely. Know that I also have a space in Denver and hope to see some of you locals soon.


Christmas eve and Christmas day both have intense aspects this year. Lots of cardinal (Aries, Cancer, Libra, Capricorn) clashes. That means that there will be power struggles and possible tension. Watch for it and don't take it too personally. Step away from the crazy!

I feel a deep sense of gratitude for what's transpired this year. Though I felt like I was on a sick carnival ride at times, I'm amazed at how much happened and feel hopeful for more. So there it is. In some ways, it feels like the year is ending in a very anti-climactic way. I guess that's why we need rituals. Rituals help us mark the sacredness of things.

Now is an excellent time to create a ritual to mark the scared quality of the season. Even the simple act of lighting a candle and sending a blessing can be extra potent now. Pause and reflect...validate and celebrate.

I hope all is well with you!
BLESSINGS,
-j

Monday, December 21, 2009

Fortune Forecast 12/21 - 12/27


PLANT THE SACRED SEED OF LOVE

This week brings the winter solstice and the longest night of the year. It also brings the opportunity to celebrate and connect. Will we play the role of facilitator to healing and the creation of love and joy? Sometimes we long for more love but what we don't realize is that we have love, infinite love at all times. Our bodies are alchemical in nature. These bodies of ours are capable of taking heavy energy in and changing it into something more beautiful. Let's play with that ability this week. Transmute and transform the heavy, negative stuff into something much more precious...love. It won't happen without effort, but the effort doesn't have to be taxing. Undertake the expansion of love with enthusiasm. It's the best holiday present we have to give.

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Monday 12/21
THE TROUBLE IS AN ILLUSION...happy solstice!
Happy Solstice! This is a very magical day and night. It also has the potential to feel a tad depressing. We have the chance to look back and review the year. How are we choosing to frame the story? Is it a story of hardship overcome or a story of crushing defeat? Let's choose to be the hero. That's right, it's a choice. Rewrite the story now if needed.

Tuesday 12/22
INTUITION GAINS STRENGTH
Our psychic abilities are are on today. Dreams offer powerful clues to help us understand the spaces that confound. Pay attention and be willing to respond. Sometimes our intuition pushes us to let go of expectations and plans we're stubbornly hanging on to. Flexibility can serve us well now. Allow for adjustments knowing that letting go IS letting God.

Wednesday 12/23
PATIENCE YIELDS REWARDS
Delays can be frustrating, especially as we close in on Christmas. The energy is frenetic today, so be careful out there! Stay grounded and just wait. What we want is coming and we don't have to do anything to make it happen. Believe it. It's not that easy to trust but for those brave enough to try, the pay off will be huge. If it's possible, stay out of the fray and hold the space of calm.

Thursday 12/24
BLOW IT UP
Let's free ourselves from the prison of perfection. We all want this time of year to be special. Sometimes our need for special translates into intense control. Blow it up. Blow up the picture of what's wanted and be open to surprises. It seems counter intuitive. We are told to picture what we want and make it happen. Instead, imagine how you want to feel and let the details arrange themselves.

Friday 12/25 Merry Christmas!
RELISH THE GOOD STUFF
A lovely time to get down to the core of what this holiday is about. There is so much beauty visible today. It's everywhere and it can infuse us with vitality. Open up to the magic of giving, connecting and resting in celebration. Yes there's intensity but there's also a ton of sweet moments in store to warm and comfort the soul. Peace on earth!

Saturday 12/26
SHAKE OFF THE BLUES
It's natural to feel deflated in the post-holiday calm. Perhaps it's not calm at all and offers too much stimulation? Either way there's a heaviness in the air today. It can be overcome if it's looked at and dealt with directly. Whatever we think the problem is, is just an illusion. It's just part of the ebb and flow of the energy, so taking it personally would be silly.

Sunday 12/27
HIDDEN WISDOM EMERGES
As we approach a new year, we have the time and space we need to reflect. As we relax, it becomes clear that it's been a rich year. One of tremendous growth, beguiling and sometimes painful lessons as well as change, some wanted and some not. Who would trade it? It brings hidden depths and strength to the fore.

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LOVE IS INFINITE

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

The Wounded Healer

The New Moon in Sagittarius is upon us. New moons can bring out the fears and doubts, so head's up peeps!

Sagittarius is a mutable, fire sign. This is optimistic, playful and adventurous energy. The sign of Sagittarius rules travel to distant lands, higher learning and spiritual studies. The new moon might be pushing us to take on a new interest or delve more deeply into an existing passion. Sagittarius is freedom oriented so we might be experiencing a degree of restlessness and dissatisfaction as the new moon energy grows in intensity.

One of the most powerful archetypes of Sagittarius is that of the wounded healer. Archers often have a healing gift to offer the world but find it impossible to apply this gift to their own lives. For example, they can be incredibly compassionate towards the people around them but have a total lack of compassion for themselves.

Sagittarius tends to look carefree. They hide their depression from others. Honestly, there's nothing worse than a depressed Sagittarius (or Gemini, their opposite). A depressed earth or water sign seems more natural but there's something truly awful when fire and air signs get down. We all depend on Sagittarius to bring light to the world, so shine on archers!


So what does it all mean in terms of the new moon? Well, we might have the opportunity now to become more aware of our wounds and how to heal them. We might see more clearly how we offer support to the world but short-change ourselves. We might be confronted with the difference between the idealized version of what we want and what is. We might be bursting with restless energy that needs a healthy outlet. We might be experiencing all of this at the same time!

If there's an area of life that feels stuck or stagnant, now is the time to send out a prayer request or conscious intention for positive change. Sagittarius tends to bite off more than it can chew, so make sure you add to your request that the change you want comes with ease and grace. Spiritual ambition often gets us in hot water as we try to rearrange things too quickly on an energy level. Add ease and grace to your request for change and avoid a healing crisis.

I know many of you are struggling right now and the holidays can amp up the disappointment and anxiety. What can we offer ourselves this season that feels nurturing and validating? Turn that tendency to give to others what is needed at home around now. Give yourself a dose of that magic you so easily and effortlessly give to others.

Let's ask for the most positive qualities of Sagittarius to come to the fore: optimism, idealism, creativity, the quest for meaning, the spirit of adventure, the desire to heal, flexibility, adaptability, joy, celebration, and more.

You can have it no matter what the wound has to say about it...

Monday, December 14, 2009

Fortune Forecast 12/14 - 12/20


ABUNDANCE GROWS AND MULTIPLIES

Whatever we put our attention on grows. That's how powerful we are! So, if you're feeling down and stuck on worries, those worries gain strength. If you look for abundance, it gets bigger as well. What do you want? Start to put some energy behind what's wanted as opposed to what's not. It sounds easy but is it? How often do we spend time imagining what we want and how it feels to have it? Perhaps we imagine what we want and experience a crushing wave of no. Say no to the no this week. It takes strength to keep a dream fed but as we stoke the fires of desire, the flame grows in might.

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Monday 12/14
BODIES NEED CARE
Sometimes we get so busy, we forget we have physical bodies that need care and attention. Perhaps we can make today a day of celebrating our bodies. When our physical self feels good, it's easier to keep our energy up and easier to manifest some magic. Even a little bit of effort can make a difference. Sleep more, eat better and get out in the sun and the fresh air.

Tuesday 12/15
THE END PRESENTS DIFFICULTIES
The end of this particular cycle is bringing out more than a few big challenges. Just when we thought the coast was clear, we suddenly encounter unexpected troubles. It's frustrating because we're tired and ready to move on. Cultivating a calm attitude can help immensely as we use intuition to find solutions and create movement.

Wednesday 12/16
FOLLOW CREATIVE IMPULSES
Creativity can be chaotic but that's where we're going to find solutions today. Go ahead and indulge a whim or two. Don't let the desire for order keep the door closed on experimentation. Stop and listen to the urges that have been offering information. Break out of the routine and do something different. A breakthrough is imminent.

Thursday 12/17
PLEASURE AWAITS
We can stick to our responsibilities today or we can choose to take some time off for nurturing activities. All those pressing projects can wait. In fact, we'll be much more able to confront and handle them if we get the boost in energy we need. Go ahead and indulge! It can be simple. It doesn't have to be extravagant but it is important. Go find some fun.

Friday 12/18
IT'S ALL GOOD
This is my old mantra. I used to say it a lot even when things weren't all good. This little phrase, which ultimately became an annoying cliche helped me see the wisdom in the challenge. Now, I offer it to you. That's right, it's yours for the taking. Go ahead and say it a few times. damn if it doesn't lighten up the energy a bit. It IS all good and you can have as much of that sweet goodness as you want.

Saturday 12/19
ENJOY WHAT'S AVAILABLE
If you've ever been really hungry than you know how delicious even foods that you hate can be when it's the only stuff around. Perhaps this is a bad metaphor because certainly you're not starving and certainly you have more than the foods you hate on hand but it does make a point. There happens to be lots of deliciousness in your world right now. You just have to taste it and see.

Sunday 12/20
VICTORY FEELS GREAT
It's time to celebrate a victory. It would be easy to let this moment slide by without acknowledgment or fanfare but that would be a big mistake. When we validate our accomplishments, we get even more great energy for the next project or passion. Go ahead and feel good about you. Relish the victory and bask in it. Create a foundation for bigger success.

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NOTICE WHAT IS

Come back to this moment. Notice what is. As we move into accepting what is happening now, we open to the opportunity to change it. Be with what's lovely in your world. Be with the ugliness. Notice the longing that creeps in, the longing to be someone else, somewhere else, with some other problem. Come back again. Keep coming back because all the good stuff is here and now.

Thursday, December 10, 2009

The Play and the Playwrite

What role have you cast yourself in this week (this lifetime)? Are you a strong, capable protagonist?

Perhaps you're an adventurer, exploring new territory or perhaps you're trapped in a castle with a dragon breathing down your neck. Maybe you're desperately in love with a remote and unavailable beloved, or you're flying solo across the Atlantic. Perhaps you're the CEO of a complicated corporate entity, or a daydreaming artist in a wild, bohemian flat. Maybe you find yourself in a prison of sorts or better, royalty in a prosperous time.



Sometimes we have enough awareness to see the role we've cast ourselves in. The archetypes we play with become apparant in a flash of insight. Those moments are sometimes fun and sometimes painful. If we've been playing a less than savory character, we might have some heavy feelings about it.

What's the play about this week? What role have we cast ourselves in? These are the questions to ponder this week and a step further; can the play and the role be changed if it's found to be lacking?

YES.

Monday, December 7, 2009

Fortune Forecast 12/7 - 12/13


WAIT FOR THE MISSING PIECE

Watch out for the desire to act before having all the needed info. Restless urges are intense this week and these urges are pushing us to be reactive and hasty. Slow down! Find distractions if necessary. It's important to be patient and wait for things to come together. They will and when they do the effort and stress will fall away. We can actually use the feelings of effort and stress as a barometer to know that it's still not time to act. The lesson here is that we can push and push and not get the answers we want and need. Sometimes it just takes time for the truth to be revealed. We wouldn't need this lesson if we lived in faith but who wants to do that? Wouldn't it be dull if there were no struggles, no drama? I'll leave that up to you to contemplate.

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Monday 12/7
HEAVINESS DESCENDS
The energy is a little tough today. It's just not feeling friendly or fun. There is a serious tone to the day and it's almost impossible to avoid. It would be easy to try and figure out why this is happening and what it all means and what needs to change to make things better but in the end, it's just energy and it doesn't have to mean much of anything. This too shall pass.

Tuesday 12/8
LITTLE GIFTS LIFT SPIRITS
Find simple ways to be of service today. Open the heart and express feelings of gratitude and appreciation. This lovely vibe will get amplified and start to take on a life of its own. Think small. Being a good listener or helping to carry someone's bags are great ways to shift energy and create more community. Extravagant is out, so go ahead and put those urges aside for now.

Wednesday 12/9
MAGIC IS AVAILABLE
Magic rests in spaces where we believe it's possible to experience it. If we are closed to the potential, we often miss it when it shows up. Be open today. Let it in. Whatever it is that we are struggling to fix, we can step back and let the healing happen. release the need to steer what's unfolding. Consider that what's wanted is already on the way.

Thursday 12/10
BE CLEAR WITH INTENTION
The manifesting potential is huge today. What do we want? Whether it's something big and complex or something simple and satisfying, start putting the list out there! Focus on the most important things on the list and the things that have the most clarity. Start small if you're feeling a lack of confidence. Keep it fun and watch the blessings flow!

Friday 12/11
PASSION PUSHES FOR EXPRESSION
Passionate feelings cannot be denied or contained today. We might have a judgment on the feelings we're experiencing or a desire to repress these feelings but it's not going to work. If we don't make space for these feelings, they will leak out all over the place and make a big mess. Who needs that? Go ahead and make room to at least consider what the soul is asking for.

Saturday 12/12
STAGNATION HAPPENS
The restless feelings grow in intensity today. Nothing seems fresh or exciting. We are confronting an area of our lives that has become a closed system. There's a need to find new energy and inspiration for this part of our lives but where to look? It doesn't really matter where we look, what matters is that we have an intention that creative energy arrives to break up the doldrums.

Sunday 12/13
PEACE IS A CHOICE
We have the ability to choose peace in any given moment. Peace is not passive. Peace is an active space, one that requires action on our parts. Sometimes, uncomfortable action. We don't have to choose peace. We can of course choose whatever we want but if we crave peace, it's important for us to remember that it's available and that it's within reach.

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PASSING TIME CREATES HEALING

Sometimes we need to distract ourselves from spaces that are stuck and frustrating. It's a challenge to know when to act and when to step back but take it from me...this week, stepping away is a good idea. Look for fun and healthy ways to distract the mind from projects that aren't yielding the desired results. The universe is lining things up and we need to give that process some room to take place. Play hooky with heart.

Wednesday, December 2, 2009

The Leap of Faith Void

It seems that we're all in the leap of faith void these days whether we're experiencing personal turbulence or not (if you're NOT experiencing personal turbulence, I want to know! Write or leave a comment please...you are my new guru).

Remember back to the beginning of the year when I was writing about the energy of dichotomies? Well, we're still grappling with this energy, the energy that seems to split us in two, the energy that makes things seem very black and white.

The last few weeks I've seen more and more of this dynamic in the world and in the people around me. One part of us has complete and total faith while the other half is kicking and screaming about the million and one ways things just aren't going to work out. Most of us are moving through our days and nights with a foot in each space, perhaps sliding back and forth.

As the ego mind becomes less predominant and less necessary it kicks and screams to stay in control. It has a story to tell and that story is one of fear and negative possibilities. This particular time period in our history is (to me) about that part of us losing its dominance. We are shifting into a more intuitive way of being but getting there ain't easy.

You might see one part of your life in complete and total crisis. It's hard not to fixate or obsess about this one area whether it's a job, a relationship, a health issue, family or home. The problem area can seem so troubled at times that it's hard to know what to do. The funny thing is, if you weren't feeling it in one area, you'd be feeling it in another. It's just the nature of the beast these days.

The comforting thing about knowing this is, it helps us all lighten up a bit. We can unhook from the drama when we know that the psychic weather is affecting our perceptions of what's real. If it feels overwhelming or insurmountable, we know we've stumbled into the dichotomy...the split.

Whatever it is that's got you down truly is not as powerful as it might seem.


The leap of faith void is a strange place. It's that zone we end up in when we know we're ready to leave something behind but we have no idea of what is to come.

One reason we may choose to avoid the leap of faith void is that there are just too many possibilities in there. The blank slate is a little too blank, the options too numerous. It's perfect really because that's what I see this time period being about. We're learning to live with uncertainty. We're learning that even when we come up with ironclad plans, they don't always work the way we want and need them to. We're seeing in stark relief that no matter how hard we try and control how change happens in our lives, in the end there's not much more to do than just go with it.

It's in the space of uncertainty that the ego mind turns on and starts humming. In the past, we put on our thinking caps and thought our way through it. The ego mind would show us all the potential problems and we'd respond with a plan that addressed as many of these potentials as possible.

It just don't work no more.

Perhaps we can have a new default when uncertainty arises? Perhaps we can greet it with delight, knowing that this is where the magical surprises come from. Expect miracles not complications. I see divinity asserting its presence more and more here on earth. The way divine energy shows up doesn't look like the picture we have, we don't always recognize it. Sometimes a miracle shows up cloaked in what looks like disaster. We need to investigate it all.

Hope this makes sense. It's freaky cold here this morning. Wow. I'm going to have to get used to this new aspect of reality. The poor rooster down the road is crowing and crowing today. I guess he's saying HELP! IT'S FREAKY COLD OUT HERE!!

I've been noticing some of the flaws of my new reality. Moving is so great! Inevitably, we have perfected ideas about what might happen in our new territory but in the end, it's just exchanging one madness for another. I'm starting to think that's all life is...one madness shifting into another. Where did all the perfectionism come from? Can't we just have fun and let it be what it is?

I'll be getting back to you on that...


Monday, November 30, 2009

Fortune Forecast 11/30 - 12/6


DIRECT ENERGY PURPOSEFULLY

Often, we go about our day just reacting and throwing energy around like there's a limitless supply. In some ways, there is a limitless supply but that's not the point. The point is, with a little awareness and a lot of grounding, we can be more discriminating about the energy we expend. When contemplating a desire, be especially mindful of the energy that's going out. If we can just be a little more purposeful this week, we'll see big gains with minimal effort. Take charge by deciding what you want to experience. How does it feel? We can create the desired vibration of energy right here and now. No more hesitation and no more excuses. It's time to play.

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Monday 11/30
GET NEUTRAL TO THE ATTENTION
Sometimes we shy away from opportunity because we can't stand the attention that comes with putting ourselves out there. If attention energy is difficult to handle, it often stops us from going after our dreams. It can also cause us to hide away, never truly letting our gifts and abilities come to light. Neutrality is the key. When we become neutral to the energy, it no longer has sway.

Tuesday 12/1
SHAKE OFF CONFUSION
The clarity we've been craving is at hand. There's just a little bit of fog left that needs to clear. The funny thing is, we're about to discover that our gut instincts were right all along and that even though we had no proof, we've had the answer for a while. Take in the validation that intuition is always working for us and let go of the annoyance of having not listened completely.

Wednesday 12/2
STOP THE NEGATIVITY
We have to actively work today to ward off the negative point of view that so desperately wants to take root. Everything looks and feel worse when we retreat into the shadows. It's not a bad place to visit just don't mistake it for a real version of reality. It's time to notice how loved ones either encourage or discourage this space. Both groups help reinforce the dynamic. Clean everyone out and start fresh.

Thursday 12/3
EXPLORE A NEW DIRECTION
It's time to wander. The spirit is demanding to see new territory and if we try and resist we might get a little roughed up. Go, and work past all the childhood conditioning that says sticking to commitments is the only way to be. It's time to break out, break free and experience something new and different. Exploration now will pay off in a multitude of ways over the next few weeks and months.

Friday 12/4
RECOGNIZE AN ENDING
It's time to move on. There's no way to stop time or preserve a space that was once dearly loved. We can keep the memories which are precious indeed but trying to keep the whole kit and caboodle is just not a good idea. This thing is starting to stink and it's also taking up space where something new wants to take root. Don't hesitate to move forward now.

Saturday 12/5
OPEN TO NEW WAYS
Trying to make things happen the same old way isn't working. Being stubborn and continuing to apply pressure to spaces that don't want to shift is a sure way to get intensely frustrated. Small adjustments can be very, very powerful today. Wing it. Make it up. Get free of the prescribed way of doing things. Creativity wants to infuse everything with possibility. Don't miss it by being myopic.

Sunday 12/6
LET IT ALL GO
Now is the time to purge and release old, emotional energies. If you need to, rent a movie, one that makes you cry, feel angry, etc. Get it all out. There's no need to try and make sense of it all, just give yourself permission to be free.

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SLOW DOWN AND KNOW MORE

Slowing down is always a good idea. You can see how unconscious people are by the degree to which they rush. When we're conscious, we know there's no need to rush. That everything is happening for a reason, including the traffic jam or the missed appointment. If you want to bring more awareness to your daily life, just slow down. Start taking some of the extraneous stuff off the schedule in order to create more time for reflection and rest. It's not lazy, it's essential.

Saturday, November 28, 2009

Small Town Living

So, I'm here in my new home. I got a lovely package of Japanese incense in the mail from the 12th House. Thank goodness because this house is in need of some aromatherapy.

The house is over 100 years old. I've always made fun of pink houses (my apologies if you live in one by choice). I always thought is was a little silly. Well guess what? My new house is pink! A dusty, salmon pink to be exact. I guess we get what we resist.

The lady who owns it bought it to renovate with her Scottish husband. I guess he was an excellent electrician because the electricity in this old house is impressive. They did a lot of work on it and I think it must have been fun at times. Unfortunately, the Scottsman had a drinking problem and things went awry. I imagine she was happy to find someone like me to take care of her investment for her. I've met her twice now. She's lonely.

There's a rooster up the road who crows all day. It's far enough away to be charming. The other night I stepped out on this little balcony off the kitchen and watched a big horn sheep munch away at what looked and sounded like dead leaves. who doesn't love animals?

Moving is strange and I hadn't done it for while, and I certainly haven't gone this far from Denver in a long time. We've had to open new bank accounts, get the kids settled in school and look for the kinds of businesses we need. These are tasks I don't really excel at.

There's no recycling here, we have to drive it to a facility about 20 minutes via highway. There are lots of little things like that, where I suddenly realize what it really means to live in a small town. I feel like I've had to drive into the Denver metro area too many times. I'm looking forward to getting more rooted here.

I admit, I've been allowing myself to blow things off with the excuse of moving. Perhaps I needed a little time to regroup? Still, I think about the people I know who maintain whatever their responsibilities come hell or high water. I guess I can't count myself as one of them BUT I'm getting ready to come back. I'll be back on 12listen a lot this week in the morning and at night, so give me a call!

If you already have an account, I'll be sending out five free minutes tomorrow which will be good for seven days. If you haven't yet called, you'll get three free minutes when you open a new account. Schedule an appointment with me and I will offer you the reduced rate of $4/minute. That's 33% off! Let's talk soon.

I hope blessings of all variety are landing in your lap right now!
-j

Monday, November 23, 2009

Fortune Forecast 11/23 - 11/29


IT'S ALL ABOUT CHOICES

Take me for instance. This week I'm choosing to slack off a little with the Fortune Forecast in order to have more time to settle into our new home. Choices mean freedom. Choices also push us to face difficult varieties of emotional energy. Let's say something happens that you don't want to happen. How do you choose to respond? With openness and a fresh perspective or is it tempting to drag resentment and disappoint forward? Life constantly presents the opportunity to choose. Use it wisely this week.

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AN ABBREVIATED VERSION OF THE FORTUNE FORECAST.
ENJOY THE SIMPLICITY OF A SINGLE PHRASE.

Monday 11/23
THINGS ARE MOVING FASTER

Tuesday 11/24
RESTLESSNESS OBSCURES ENJOYMENT

Wednesday 11/25
THE DREAM WON'T FIX IT

Thursday 11/26
IT'S HARD TO PLAY ALONE

Friday 11/27
BE FORCEFUL

Saturday 11/28
GOOD FORTUNE ABOUNDS

Sunday 11/29
DIG DEEP FOR STRENGTH

need help with the energy this week?
IF ONE PATH IS TROUBLED, TRY A DIFFERENT ONE

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Reflections

I'm sitting here late at night. The children are sleeping in the big bed with their dad and it's just me and the cat. Come sit with me in my living room here in Denver for a bit and let me tell you a story.


We've been packing up for days but by the time you read this, I should be unpacking at my new, little house up in Idaho Springs.

I feel as if I put myself in one of those medieval catapults and cut the rope. Holy cow!

It's been an interesting journey, this whole "sell the house and move" thing. It really put me through a process that I knew would happen but didn't know exactly how it would feel. I'm saying goodbye to a lovely home and hello to the unknown. I could tell you a million stories about why I wanted to move. Depending on my mood, the stories might be uplifting or slightly depressing. I don't really know why we're moving. All I know is that I wanted to and sometimes wanting is enough.

When my house got a contract in three days, I spun out for a week or two. I experienced regret and hesitation, which quickly became panic because we had no idea where we were going. I'd had some vague ideas but once we got the contract, some of my ideas were quickly revealed to be untenable (it turns out that for me, living in a remote cabin in the windy mountains of Colorado has too much potential to become the shining. I kid, sort of...).

We looked all over the place and landed in Idaho Springs. Part of it is practical. About three months ago, my dear husband got a job up in Gilpin County. He's been through a lot of job turbulence over the last four years and this is a great job for him. The commute from Denver was tough and we knew it would be tougher still once winter set in. I was worried about him and how exhausting it is to drive up the canyon roads and then back again, late at night.

We also have talked for years about leaving Denver (where we both were born and raised). We've always wanted to live in a smaller town, with lots of natural beauty. I looked in Golden, Evergreen and up in Gilpin County but nothing seemed to fall into place. Idaho Springs gave my husband the easiest commute and still offered amenities, like a good school, a real community and the old west flavor I so love.


Idaho Springs is a funny place and I had hesitation about choosing it. It never seems to prosper. The highway slices through it and it often seemed to me just a stop on the way to somewhere else. Still, we had spent a lot of time here visiting the Indian Hot Springs resort. I say resort loosely because it's kind of run down. In fact, every time we go, I start dreaming about the many ways I would improve it if I were the owner. Fortunately, I'm not the owner and when we visit all I have to do is float in the big pool and let the troubles melt away!

The people we've met up here have been incredibly friendly. Just yesterday, we drove up to drop off some fragile items. It was cloudy and the pine trees on the hills were dusted with snow. It was unbelievably beautiful. Everything had been sprinkled with silver-white perfection. I was chatting with a man at the storage place (we have too much stuff for our new house but I'm not quite ready to let it all go) and I said "I just love days like today. It's so beautiful." and he said "Yes it is! I just love it up here," with so much enthusiasm that I felt really connected to this stranger for a second.

It seems that the people who gravitate here aren't really upwardly mobile like their neighbors to the southeast in Evergreen. I get the feeling they're here because they love the outdoors, or they're seeking simplicity. If I'm right, I know it will be refreshing for us. I've struggled with Capricorn ambition at times, the materialism and the desire for more. I wonder what it will be like to be in a community that doesn't necessarily reward or value this kind of ambition?

The house I'm saying goodbye to is so freaking beautiful! I put a lot of energy and resources into making it a Neptunian oasis for me and my family. The problem is, it started to become a bit of a gilded cage. Though it's a lovely home, I have this terrible neighbor and no matter how much I tried, I just couldn't heal the relationship. On top of that, the urban noise is intense and there's a frenetic quality to the block that grates on me. The neighborhood school is troubled and though my son had an amazing teacher (a Yale University grad! Don't you love those idealistic, young teachers? Thank goodness they're out there!) I still felt that it wasn't the right space for him.

I'm not one who believes in geographical cures. I've moved around enough to know that wherever you go, there you are. I don't imagine this move will magically change the things I struggle with. If you've been hanging out here and reading for awhile, you may have observed that I'm not about happiness exactly. Happiness is a bit of fickle friend. Give me experience, expansion, experimentation and permission, all of which can be uncomfortable at times. I'm about being human with all the glory and gore that comes with it. I wanted to grow and this is one way to do it. Certainly there are multiple options when it comes to growth and I imagine that staying would have offered a different kind of growth. Perhaps one of acceptance and commitment? Those two are challenging indeed!

As far as the quick sale, I kept saying over and over "wouldn't it be great if the first person who came to see this house bought it?" Everyone looked at me like I was nuts, but the first person who came DID buy it. Now that's pretty freaking cool! As it unfolded, I was a little annoyed at how much I had been seduced by the bad economy/slow real estate message. I hadn't trusted my ability to manifest with ease.

Strangely, I met the buyer the day the house went on the market. I was out in the front yard, noticing the increasing attention energy with the sign in the yard and was just about to dash inside when this lovely woman came running up. She looked like my kind of person. I could tell she wanted to talk. I did not. (My kind of person or not, I'm a bit reclusive and I wasn't in the mood to chat up the house. Call my agent for heaven's sake!).

I reluctantly went down to the gate. We chatted about the area and she said straight up I WANT THIS HOUSE. I was like "yeah..whatever," because I've bought and sold a few houses in my time and the whole thing is so darn slippery but she was insistent and damn if she didn't make it happen!

I'm happy that this house has someone new to love it. A family in fact with two kids. I know they'll enjoy it here because it's a great house in a neighborhood that just keeps getting better. I've had more than a moment of grief at the thought of leaving an area that so many want to be in. In my darkest moments I found myself wondering why I didn't appreciate it more and why I was so quick to cast it off. The full moon in Taurus the day after Halloween popped that bubble, thank goodness.

Like I said earlier, I'm not really sure what just happened and I'm not sure we'll live the rest of our lives in Idaho Springs. Perhaps we too are just on our way to somewhere else? Still, it feels amazing to be going through this. After talking about it for years, we're finally taking action. This process has pushed me to purge, not just the stuff that's been collecting around here but also aspects of my identity and my values. Who am I? What do I want? I imagine I'll be pondering these questions for the rest of my life. It's occurred to me lately that taking life too seriously is a silly thing to do. I don't want to be afraid to change the shape of things or live with hesitation. I want to be a leap into the void kind of gal and maybe I am after all.

Thanks for hanging out with me as I stumble through this. I only tell you this story because so many have asked. I hope the fresh, mountain air and my visits to Indian Hot Springs will refresh me and give me more material to write about. I have so loved this space of Leonine Times and the many wonderful connections that have come to me because of it! Your letters and comments of support mean a lot to me. I'm also certain that my psychic reading/teaching space will get a shot in the arm as I relax into a more quiet kind of life. I can't wait to see what unfolds.

You can be sure I'll let you know what happens!

xoxo
Julia

ps. Idaho Springs is about 30 miles from Denver but it feels further because it's really the gateway to the Rocky Mountains. If you're one of my local clients, you can still contact me for a reading in person by email. I have use of a lovely space near Cheeseman Park and will be coming down for readings and to visit my Denver peeps quite often. You can also find me at 12listen.com for phone readings. I'll be expanding my hours there after we get settled. Remember that when you schedule an appointment, I have the ability to offer you a deep discount!

pps. Are you trying to sell a property? Call me because I'm starting to think I have more real estate mojo than I originally thought!!

Monday, November 16, 2009

Fortune Forecast 11/16 - 11/22


THE WHEEL OF FORTUNE GOES UP

It's good luck time. Are you going to make yourself available for it? I hope so, peeps! The wheel of fortune is always spinning. Sometimes things go our way and everything falls into place and sometimes it all falls apart even though we may have done everything "right". Most of us are constantly trying to create the outcome we want and if it doesn't go well, we tend to slip into self-recrimination. The wheel of fortune reminds us that there are forces and patterns greater than our own will. Sometimes it comes down to luck and good timing. If you've been needing a shot in the arm, you just might get it this week. It's a great time to take a risk and reach out for what's wanted and desired. The wheel of fortune is ruled by Jupiter (the planet of expansive optimism). Make the most of this energetic trend knowing that the wheel will inevitably turn again, taking us into more complex and difficult territory.

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Monday 11/16
IDEAS BECOME REALITY
We get to see manifestation in action today but the funny things is, we can't quite remember what we did to make it all happen. That's because doing is not the answer. Doing things and doing them in the right order is not where the power to make it happen resides. There's an effortless quality to the energy today. Just go with it and see where it takes you.

Tuesday 11/17
ACCEPT AN INVITATION TO PLAY
Although there are a million things tugging on us, we need to stop and play. even a short burst of silliness will help us move through difficult and dense energies. No more excuses! Get silly and enjoy the feeling of pushing all those pressing responsibilities aside. They'll still be there after our play date but we will be different and fresher in our approach to them. A change in perspective is always a good thing.

Wednesday 11/18
AMBITION INTENSIFIES
Our desire to get somewhere is growing in intensity. We might find ourselves anticipating potential problems and how we're going to respond. We need the wisdom of head and heart to get where we want to go. Limit distractions and ponder the pure feeling of being there. What does it feel like to attain this desire? Meditate on that and the bumps in the road will smooth right out.

Thursday 11/19
NEW PLEASURES EMERGE
There is a lovely sense of discovery today. Life feels fresh and open. We might discover new pleasure by investigating our creativity or through a new, vital connection to someone interesting. Perhaps good news is coming, or we have more time to just relax and enjoy. Focus on the body today and what it takes to get that body feeling good. Problems lose their power when we feel good.

Friday 11/20
PSYCHIC ABILITY STRENGTHENS
Intuitive insights are potent today and can offer us many valuable hints. Sometimes it's tough to decipher what our intuitive mind is telling us with it's communication style of fleeting feelings and water-color impressions. Pay attention to the feelings. We don't have to make sense of it. Keep it simple but if anxiety pops up, take it as a no and if joy pops up, take it as a yes. The rest of the information will come together in time.

Saturday 11/21
LIGHTEN UP
Sometimes we just have to push ourselves out of a heavy space. Make a deal with yourself that you will mope, whine, lament for 20 minutes and then do your best to move on. Whatever is the cause of the dark mood, is truly not that bad. It's only intense because it reminds us of other experiences where the outcome was not what we wanted. History doesn't have to repeat itself. Perhaps this is the mantra for the day.

Sunday 11/22
BE HERE NOW
It's so easy to drift into the future or slide back into the past. We are especially prone to this if we aren't satisfied with what's unfolding right now. The funny thing is, if we aren't here, we can't really change what we don't like about this moment and we certainly can't capitalize on the myriad of opportunities labeled NOW. Come home and be with it and if it's something unwanted, watch it shift.

need help with the energy this week?
GO WITH IT, WHATEVER IT IS

The wheel of fortune counsels us to stay loose. Go with it, even if it's unexpected and unwanted. Opportunity often hides in adversity. The spaces in our lives that feel the most off kilter often have the most potential to help us get closer to what we want. It's time to step away from control and go for a ride on the ever turning wheel.

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Planetary Cat Fight Alert

Exciting developments this week astrologically, peeps. We're coming into a Pluto/Saturn square. Yum.

The imagery I get is of a mac truck slowly climbing a hill (Pluto in Capricorn). Here comes Saturn (in Libra) in a shiny, new hummer...going too fast I think and WHAM! The hummer runs straight into the mac truck. A t-bone if you will. No one is hurt but tempers flare. Pluto climbs down from the mac truck and Saturn hops out of the Hummer and a big argument commences. Both think they have the right of way and neither one is willing to back down.

Pluto will win this battle but not without a fight. Perhaps the police will arrive and mediate? Oh Saturn...you were going so fast in your new Hummer, listening to your favorite music and you just didn't see the stop sign. Now your fancy car is wrecked and you'll be late for all your other appointments and damn, you're mad.

Both planets are asking us to change, grow, transform (often through hardship). Both planets are in cardinal signs, which means they are each focused on their goals and having the outcome look a certain way (to the point of not caring about anyone else's agenda).

What does this mean for us? It means that our carefully laid plans are being challenged. The more stubbornly we cling to wanting things to go our way, the more roughed up we'll get. Expect to encounter power struggles and a level of intensity that seems out of character based on the events taking place.

Stay loose peeps!! Be willing to consider an alternative route. Notice the desire to control what's happening and gently step out of it. This cycle is going to play out over the next six months or so with varying intensity, so prepare. Whatever issues you're dealing with that feel overwhelming might not see resolution for a while. What are you going to do as things get rearranged and the road opens again?


I've been aware of this energy building. We've seen a few violent outbursts in the news of late and I've also done more than a few readings where the level of despair was truly stunning. With the new moon in Scorpio coming this Monday, expect your feelings to be heightened and possibly negative.

The planets continue to urge us to deconstruct the things that just don't work anymore. Sometimes we want to hang on just because it's too uncomfortable to let go. Speaking as someone who just jumped into the leap of faith void, I KNOW how scary and disturbing it can be to not have a real picture of what's coming on the heels of what's ending. Go anyway!!

Some of you might be feeling like there's no light at the end of the tunnel. Hang in there. It's going to be all right. Call in some support. Lay low if you can for the next few days. Step away from the crazy!

These are exciting times and your soul signed up for this. You might be kicking yourself now (ha ha) but you're here and you're ready for what's unfolding. Amp up on the self care and find someone to hug. Birth ain't easy but the new life that's emerging is so, so worth the effort and pain.

HAPPY PLUTO/SATURN SQUARE!!

Monday, November 9, 2009

Fortune Forecast 11/9 - 11/15


NEW SPROUTS PROMISE NEW LIFE

Everything is in how we choose to perceive it this week. We can see things as working or see everything in the midst of being dismantled. It's our choice. There are fragile signs of new life that need care and protection. Patience is important now and can help us work diligently to cultivate abundance, love and healing. At first, it might seem as if nothing is really happening, but faith can help us through these dark moments to a grand harvest. Dissatisfaction is tempting and most of us will succumb to it for a bit but it's important not to rest there too long. Dissatisfaction blinds us to the shimmering potential that each moment presents. Come back home, to the moment. Embrace it even in its lack of perfection. The magic is waiting there, waiting to expand and multiply.

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Monday 11/9
NO REGRETS, NO WORRIES
Don't look back or in other words, pull energy and attention out of the past. There's nothing to be done about what has transpired so start looking at what's happening now. What story has been constructed to make sense of the past? It's time to cast off the old tales and cultivate a fresh and open approach.

Tuesday 11/10
DEEP CYCLES ARE AT WORK
We can't see or feel the progress today. It's as if we're staring out over a barren landscape, which is frustrating at best. Still, we can rest assured that growth and change are happening, gently and at a pace that causes no harm. This is not the most exciting time but there is a new foundation being laid and it's strong enough to support a dream or two.

Wednesday 11/11
EXPAND ON THOUGHTS AND IDEAS
We need space to dream big now. Push out past all the urge to be practical. Stop the voice that says no and just dream. The time for action is coming but it's not here yet. If we're holding on to a narrow idea of how to get somewhere, we're missing out on the magic. Let it be big, let it be bold and dare to believe in a miracle or two.

Thursday 11/12
LET THE DIVINE INSPIRE
It's always there, waiting to connect. Source energy, that is. Don't expect to see it unfold in dramatic fashion. The divine will be discovered in the simplest of spaces today. It's the loving glace, the warm sun, the delicious aroma of a well prepared meal. Slow down and relish the little joys that stream along. Be comforted and embraced by the pleasures of the senses.

Friday 11/13
AN AWAKENING BRINGS PEACE
A sudden shift in perception helps us see things more clearly and gives us the power to choose. Choice brings freedom and alleviates fear. It's as if all the clouds are scurrying away and all that's left is clear, blue sky. Enjoy the new view and get ready for solutions to appear where there were none before. It's easier now, as well it should be.

Saturday 11/14
GRAB IT WHEN IT RUNS BY
A wonderful opportunity is in the works but it's the kind of thing that won't last. We need to grab it as soon as we see it, without hesitation or doubt. Our bodies can tell us how and when to act. Instinct is powerful now. Trust the feelings of excitement and enthusiasm and go after it. Be like the hunter, stealthy and quiet. Joy follows timely action today.

Sunday 11/15
TIE UP LOOSE ENDS
Boredom is a problem today. We might find ourselves looking for distractions but a better use of time and energy would be to clean up and prepare for the next cycle of activity. It's coming, so prepare now. Get organized and purge. Make space for new delights. Even mindful rest is better than pacing around like a restless, caged animal.

need help with the energy this week?
TRUST

Easier said than done! We might not be able to see the signs that we're on the right track. Radical trust is called for. Affirmations can help with the fear. Write them and say them until the energy shifts. All is love.

Thursday, November 5, 2009

Got Miracles?

I feel like I've been neglecting this space. No, let me be more accurate. I HAVE been neglecting this space.

The last few weeks have been so intense, not just in my world but in our world. Saturn has moved into a square with Pluto and let's face it, that's tough energy. Imagine the planet that rules discipline and learning through sacrifice and hardship clashing with the planet that rules the underworld and radical transformation. Not pretty.

There's tension in the air and I'm sure you're feeling it (certainly, I hope you're not but I'm not sure it can be avoided).

I've been experiencing this tension via the sale of my house and through the search for another home.

When my house got a contract after only three days, I was taken aback. I hadn't really figured out where we were going. Then we had a little blizzard here and the two feet of snow reminded me that winter was on the way and I had little time to investigate. There's nothing like challenging weather to make a person feel like nesting and the thought of leaving our nest felt scary and uncomfortable. I started experiencing this terrible grief about letting go. I was questioning my decision (I say my decision because I'm married to a mutable guy and he'll go wherever, whenever. He also seems to stay a lot more relaxed about these things). I felt this deep uncertainty, which was pretty darn awful.

It was as if I couldn't remember why I wanted to make the change. My house suddenly seemed more precious than ever, probably because someone else suddenly wanted it very badly. Everything that's wonderful about it seemed to eclipse the things I never liked about it. It was weird.

Then the full moon in Taurus came along and snapped me out of it. I still felt achy but I started to look ahead again. I put my head down and went nuts looking for the next great space. I finally zeroed in on a specific area and dammed if things didn't start to fall into place. My dear friend Mark Husson over at the 12th House urged me to put the word out to everyone that I was looking and the support that came through helped so much. Normally, I just try to muddle through this stuff on my own. I don't really like asking for help but once I opened myself up, it seemed to shift some stuck energy.

Not only did I ask my friends for support, I started to get much more active about seeking what I want. There's been a part of me that as I moved through this process, felt like I would just have to take what I could get. That energy culminated today when I saw a couple rentals that would be okay but weren't really what I want to create (mind you, I'm running out of time. I have about 2 weeks max to get this worked out). Part of me was tempted to just say yes. Weary of looking and doubting my ability to find something magical, I was ready to just go somewhere, anywhere.

This evening, things took a strange turn of events. Some people who have a lovely home in the area I want to live, found me and while it's not a done deal, I feel like there's some magic happening in the space between me and these virtual strangers. Even if this particular option doesn't work out, it's as if I was reminded that YES I can manifest something great. I mean hell's bells...I manifested a full price offer on my house in three days (with help from a wonderful agent, an amazing carpenter, a house healer friend and a hardworking house cleaner as well as many, many friends and supporters).

So there it is. I'm giving you the short version here but the point I'm trying to make is this: YOU CAN DO IT...whatever it is you want. The energy is so tough lately. It just wants to squeeze us into a corner and make us believe that we should take the scraps off the table instead of indulging in the feast. I was shocked at the process that got unleashed by the sale of my house. My faith is more easily shaken than I want to admit and yet that miracle energy I've been writing about, it's still available and it's getting bigger.

We'll see peeps. Things are moving very quickly in my reality, perhaps in yours as well? I don't expect perfection. I wanted things to look different and I'm getting what I wanted. It will be interesting to see where everything ends up and you can bet I'll keep you updated.

At this point I am so grateful to have tossed myself into the leap of faith void. What a great place to learn more about ourselves!! In some ways, it doesn't even matter where I end up. What matters is that I'm having an incredibly expansive experience. As my dear friend Mark said earlier in the unfolding "at least you're not bored." AMEN BROTHER.

Love to you!!

Monday, November 2, 2009

Fortune Forecast 11/2 - 11/8


INTERNAL STRIFE PRESENTS DIFFICULTY

This week we get the opportunity to learn more about our own internal dynamics and how those dynamics create tension in the reflected reality we dwell in. The strife we encounter this week is rooted in the way we perceive and respond. Look to see what glasses are on now. Are they glasses that make the world seem like a lovely, loving place or are they glasses that make the world seem bleak and uncaring? It's important to take responsibility for whatever it is we're projecting. We don't have to change it as much as we need to become aware of it. With awareness comes the power to shift into something more fulfilling. Our struggles can show us where energies have collected to keep us frustrated and stuck. Let's be loving towards ourselves when we find these tricky spots. Anything less won't bring about the change we seek.

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Monday 11/2
CLARITY IS SOON TO COME
...but it's not here yet. Patience is called for today. While we might feel ready to move into new arenas, it's not quite time yet. That's why the clarity and certainty we're looking for isn't here yet. What do we do to entertain ourselves while we wait for things to line up? That's the space to ponder now. Don't try and push through it. It will move on its own soon enough.

Tuesday 11/3
GET CONTROL
It's time to take charge and get everything tidy and organized. This includes our physical space as well as our mental, emotional and psychic space. Sounds like a lot of work but once we delve into it, it starts to get fun. Dial down on the expectations. Even a little bit of effort here will make an impact and help us clear some space for new delights to appear.

Wednesday 11/4
ABUNDANCE IS FRIENDSHIP
Connections are important and have the potential to help shift our energy either positively or negatively. Be discriminating about whom to spend time with today. Reach out and find those folks who help support and nurture dreams. Be willing to offer the same in return. Friendship can be a healing balm but like everything else, it needs attention and care to flourish.

Thursday 11/5
BALANCE HEAD AND HEART
The mind and the heart are pulling us in opposite directions today and it's challenging to figure out which one should lead. These two, potent forces seem to be in conflict but when we look closer we see that they both want the same thing. If we can get to the root of the matter, we can use both forces to create something amazing.

Friday 11/6
GROUNDING FEELS GOOD
There are a million ways to ground. Any activity that brings joy helps us release the energies we don't need anymore. Today is a great day to play in this space. Be mindful throughout the day of whether or not you're grounded. Just deciding to become more aware of this dynamic will kick-start a healing process. Let go and replenish with something luscious...your own life force energy!

Saturday 11/7
WAIT FOR THE MISSING PIECE
It's hard not to rush headlong into the unknown today but we'll be better off if we wait just a little longer. There's an important piece of information that is ready to drop in. When this missing piece shows up, things are going to come together with less effort and stress. It's hard to trust in this notion when struggle is so popular. Just wait...

Sunday 11/8
FREE THE DOVES
I admit it. I got this from my little brother. Whenever he feels anxious he just imagines a flock of doves flying out of his chest. Free the doves! When the energy gets intense and the anxiety is building just imagine those birds flapping their wings and flying up to the sky. It feels good and it's a great way to visualize releasing from the heart chakra. Let it all out.

need help with the energy this week?
REMEMBER

Remember who you are. You're not the long list of problems you're working on or a compendium of faults. You're not the story you tell yourself or the experiences you've had. You're a magnificent, shining, bright being and when that part comes forward, everything else melts away. No need to wake up. You're already awake...just remember.

Friday, October 30, 2009

Grateful Dead - Althea 03-28-81

I used to have this recurring dream that Jerry Garcia was my uncle and he was going to come play at my birthday party but my parents wouldn't let him because he was too stinky and unkempt.

Frustrating...

I hope this Friday is treating you well, friends! I'm searching for my golden shell, my next home. Funny how my idea of what I want and what's going to work keeps shifting and changing.

I'm struggling to trust. A wonderful space to be in!!

Keeping an eye on the part of me that wants control. Keeping an eye on the perfectionism. Keeping an eye on the desire to make it "right."

Hopefully this tune won't dredge up too many thoughts of body odor and what not. Sometimes stink happens during shift and change.

I LOVE YOU UNCLE JERRY!

Monday, October 26, 2009

Things Got Nuts

Apologies for being uneven and messy lately!

My life got interesting in the last few weeks. We put our house up for sale on a Wednesday and by Saturday, we had a contract. To say it was a surprise is an understatement. I was and am stunned.

So...I let that stunning space take over and things got a little messy. I've been distracted and it shows. Oops. My apologies again and thanks to the many of you who are writing me to show me my mistakes and hanging in there with me while I get grounded again.

So. That's the story, peeps.

Now I'm getting a chance to experience the feeling of throwing myself into unfamiliar territory with the hopes of hearing the divine as I float through it. So far, so good with the exception of my professional mess.

I'm off to take my magic somewhere else...please continue to bear with me.

Fortune Forecast 10/26 - 11/1


WORK WITH CONTAINMENT

We may get pinched into an awkward situation or two this week. We can manage these moments with grace as we slough off the resistance that makes things rigid. Perhaps the spaces that feel confining are pulling us in to tight quarters so that we can become more familiar with the energy and grow in wisdom? It's important that we know the spaces we choose to dwell in. This week we have the opportunity to see the advantages and the limitations of the choices we've made.

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Monday 10/26
DARK DREAMS CREATE PAIN
Escapist tendencies are taking on a slightly sinister tone. Dreams that once provided relief and levity are suddenly scary and energy draining. Judgments we keep close to our sleeves are popping out to be examined and may be causing a bit of drama along the way. Get to the root. What is wanted and needed? This awareness is where the healing is.

Tuesday 10/27
QUIET STABILITY PROVIDES COMFORT
Today we are offered respite and perhaps not a lot of entertainment. Now is the time to relax and enjoy what is. There's no need for striving right now. Just enjoy the simplicity and the utter lack of problems. For those who thrive on stress, the peace offered now is hard to swallow. Don't worry, drama starts up again tomorrow.

Wednesday 10/28
CONFLICT ERUPTS
People just seem to be itching to fight today. Everyone is irritable and it's contagious. Old resentments are bubbling up and causing unexpected outbreaks of bad temper. The only way to stay out of the fray is to stay home. Even that might bring out irritable feelings towards family, self and pets. Meditation can help.

Thursday 10/29
A WEALTH OF WISDOM APPEARS
The answer is there when it's needed, not a second before. This can be a challenging space to contend with. There's simply no way to count on or predict anything today. If we choose to go with the energetic trend, we'll end up somewhere delightful but if we fight it, things could get tough. Go with it, not against it.

Friday 10/30
CONFUSION TAKES OVER
Things are suddenly cloudy and spaces that had certainty are shifty and changing. If big decisions can be delayed, they should be. A missing bit of information is on the way and when it arrives things will be much more clear. It's time to find some healthy amusements to help pass the time until the clouds burn off and the horizon is clear.

Saturday 10/31
MAKE A DECISION
End the debate and take action. Notice the creeping anxiety that causes the myriad of choices to seem questionable. The fear of choosing something wrong needs to be banished, once and for all. There's no right, no wrong...it's all just movement and expansion. Undertake the next chapter of the story with gladness in the heart.

Sunday 11/1
BOUNDARIES NEED STRENGTHENING
Shore up. This is the time to restore and prepare for an upcoming period of acceleration. Protect and care for plans that are still in infancy. Reflect on personal needs and work to meet them. Healing will come from an awareness of what originates with us and what does not.

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ACCEPTANCE IS A HEALING

Let the tension of trying to control it all melt away. Acceptance is fluid, it moves and shifts and changes. When we lost the rigidity, it's much easier to move through dynamic shifts in energy. Whatever helps take the edge off this week, DO IT. Knowing when to let go of the fight brings success.

Monday, October 19, 2009

Fortune Forecast 10/19 - 10/25


DELAYS BRING GIFTS OF ALL KIND

This week, things don't move as quickly as we want them to. We can frustrate ourselves trying to control it or we can throw up our hands and start to dance.


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Monday 10/19
THE FOG IS LIFTING
Clarity is arriving just in the nick of time. Suddenly we can see to the horizon.

Tuesday 10/20
SPACE OUT
Let go, relax and indulge in a dream. It's good for the spirit.

Wednesday 10/21
IF NO DOOR, FIND A WINDOW
Be creative and seek alternative routes to the destination. There are openings everywhere.

Thursday 10/22
A RAY OF LIGHT PROVIDES GUIDANCE
Dark moods make it difficult to figure out what's going on. Light shines in the distance, illuminating the path.

Friday 10/23
ACTIVELY PURSUE PEACE
Do what's possible to create more harmony. Make a gesture, even if pride kicks and screams.

Saturday 10/24
CONNECTING BRINGS LEVITY
The heart needs nurturing and contact can provide what's needed. Reach out.

Sunday 10/25
AN OPEN HEART IS THE BEST DEFENSE
It takes strength to be vulnerable. Open the heart and free the power.

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TRUST IN BIGGER FORCES

We are never alone.

*sorry about the skeletal fortune forecast this week. i'm experimenting with a short form. we'll see. big changes this week in julia land that ate up my time and head space. apologies for anyone offended!

Thursday, October 15, 2009

Dream, Come Down...Or Not

How much of our creative energy is tied up in dreams and fantasies? This space can bring great pleasure but sometimes it gets painful.

Some dreams and fantasies will never be real and perhaps that's what we want. If you've ever had a mad crush that became a real relationship and ultimately a real disappointment, you might know what I'm talking about. Sometimes a mad crush is better left as a fantasy that we control...a lush prop in our inner world. A good fantasy offers us respite from our troubles and frustrations. A good fantasy can provide entertainment when we're bored and give us creative juice for areas of our lives that need a jolt.

When we become attached to making a fantasy real, we sometimes encounter frustration, anxiety and pain, especially if that fantasy is far away from where we are now. My fantasy of becoming an astronaut could provide me hours of entertainment but if I actually tried to make it real, it would take time and resources and honestly, I'm not sure I'd be able to achieve it?

How do we know which dreams to manifest and which to leave in the dream space?

One way we can tell which path to take is whether or not the feeling of it becoming real creates anxiety. Let's go back to the mad crush example. If the mad crush is George Clooney, we might have an understanding that meeting him and becoming his main squeeze is pretty remote but if our mad crush is a co-worker or someone we see on a regular basis, the space gets more intense. At that point we might have an underlying feeling of anxiety about trying to make something happen. We might kick ourselves for not smiling or spend hours contemplating what it meant when a minor exchange takes place.

This feeling of needing to do something, do the right thing gets painful and we often use it as an excuse to parade out all the things we don't like about ourselves.

I've seen it over and over. Some people come into our lives to spark the fantasy. That's their role and trying to make them more of a real character in the story is a fruitless endeavor. Sometimes longing is where it's at.



Fantasies also cause pain when they take us away from making the changes that will shift us into a better space. Fantasy can become escapism (not a problem in small doses but a big problem when it overtakes our whole being). If a fantasy becomes consuming, it's time to pause and look at what we're so desperate to avoid in our "real" life.

Our fantasies give us clues about our soul purpose. My fantasy of being an astronaut is a metaphor for travel, exploration and adventure. Perhaps I can fulfill these needs without actually trying to join NASA? Relationship fantasies are informative too. What is the fantasy about? Excitement? Being with "bad" partner? Being seen and embraced? Finding that one true soul mate who really gets who we are? All of these are clues as to what's missing and what needs to be developed.

If the fantasy is getting painful, it's time to look to the root of what it is we think we're missing. If the fantasy isn't painful and/or too distracting, CARRY ON. Use this space to become more aware of the essence of what we're ready to create.

Fantasies help fill the well so to speak and there's nothing wrong with that.

Monday, October 12, 2009

Fortune Forecast 10/12 - 10/18


FEEL THE FIRE AND GO

Passionate energies are building in intensity and we need to stay in motion. If we let this energy build up with no real outlet, things are bound to get explosive and unpleasant. Situations that are tolerable might suddenly seem unbearable. This is our opportunity to bow out of projects and relationships that we've outgrown and that no longer fill us up. Some of us will enjoy this dynamic energy and some of us will struggle. Fire is unpredictable and it often brings chaos with it. Let the heat burn away what's no longer wanted. Creative energy is soaring and we feel ready for risks we were talking ourselves out of just a short time ago. Now is the time to initiate new projects and relationships and leave the worries behind.

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Monday 10/12
WISHES COME OUT OF THE BLUE
It's raining beautiful things today. Little sparkles of loveliness seem to be dropping right out of the sky, to be enjoyed by whomever takes the time to do so. Each one seems bigger than the one before. It's time to open to big possibilities and leave the dream crushing voice behind.

Tuesday 10/13
DIG IN AND DO THE WORK
This is not the time to play, daydream or wander. There are definite responsibilities that need to be addressed and handled. Diligence will pay off. The harvest promises to be a big one but it will all be based on our steady, patient focus. It's okay to take breaks for refreshment but try and keep in alignment with the creative momentum happening today.

Wednesday 10/14
COMPLETION IS CHALLENGING
It's tough to get to the end of something. It's frustrating too because we are ready to move on mentally and emotionally but we can't move on just yet. There's work to be done and it's not the exciting kind of work. It's a but of drudgery. Thinking about it is worse than getting it done. Trying to skip it will create problems later. Just do it!

Thursday 10/15
MAKE IT SACRED
Every action has the potential to be sacred. We can bring that awareness into every moment and today, that kind of energy is especially available and potent. Welcome the divine into daily trials an tribulations as well as moments of success and celebration. Imagine how rich the world would be if all were aware and mindful of spirit in everything.

Friday 10/16
GRAB IT WHEN YOU SEE IT
Opportunity is about to come running by. We need to be willing to reach out and grab it when it shows up. If we hesitate, we might miss our chance to get into something great. Instinct will tell us how and when to act but we must be listening. Feel and let guidance come through feelings. If things feel good, we know we're going in a fruitful direction.

Saturday 10/17
BASK IN THE GOOD STUFF
Gratitude has the potential to grow and expand. Today, if we choose to focus on what's good and delightful, more will manifest. Even small moments of pleasure can help us move through others spaces that contain the makings of stress and tension. Relax into what works and don't give the problems too much time or attention.

Sunday 10/18
FORTIFY THE BOUNDARIES
Strengthen the boundaries today. Getting out in the world fuzzy and unfocused could be a problem. Psychic sensitivity can be overwhelming and steps need to be taken to counter act challenging energies. Stay centered and notice the desire to take it all personally. It's not personal, so don't make it.

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ACT FIRST, THINK LATER

Go for it. Don't let the mind stop the flow of YES.